I would steer clear of steroids given what you are going through.. its a really bad idea man... i would look at nootropics especially that will help with your mental mindset etc... you could look at sarms and peptides but i would definitely not go near steroids unless you have a medical need for trt, then you would want look into that... i would look at the sarms triple stack to start
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1-12 GW-501516 (CARDARINE) 20 mg day dosed once a day in the a.m.
1-12 S4 (ANDARINE) 50 mg day... split doses... 25 mg in the a.m. and 25 mg 4-6 hours later
1-12 Mk2866 (OSTABOLIC) 25 mg per day first two weeks then bump to 50 mg per day, dosed once a day in the a.m.
1-12 n2guard
Mini pct 13-16
Clomid 50/25/25/25 OR Nolva 40/20/20/20
Gw-501516 20 mg day