Sorry that i cant tell what is needed to be heard since it has to be what is “wanted” instead. How about you go ask mommy for some coddling. If you want help, youll get it… you wont get it sugar coated, like a child. I know thats common now to be a whiner but i dont live in fantasy land which u clearly do… i studied steroids and coached them five years before i ever touched one bud… i asked everyone for every bit if info i could absorb before i even considered it… i literally gave the reasons for the problems but because i didnt fkng coddle in the process, your little feelings got hurt… good luck to you, i wish u nothing but the best.